Monthly Archives: April 2011

I am not depressed, just coming apart

That was a place of planned rest. One where I would grow old, and die amongst family and friends. Or at least amongst pictures I put together in albums that I would go through when I had the time to … Continue reading

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Easier said than done

I would like to be courageous. This is not the same as it was two decades back, the meaning of the word itself seems to be completely different. Courage cannot be in action. Not  for me anyway. Actions don’t happen … Continue reading

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Around the corner………lurks death

Its hot. Arun ji says he likes to be out travelling in the scorching sun. I used to too. Now I prefer 22 degrees centigrade. Nothing like the California sky at this time of the year. The cherry tree across Amma’s … Continue reading

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I am that fed up.

How long can I be all that you want me to be? May I be sad and negative now? May I shed a few tears when I feel like it? Sulk, be hurt, you know, generally not live up to your … Continue reading

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Finally…….

I think I was angry with Papa for not spending as much time with me as I needed. I think I felt rejected. Though he said he loved me,  he did not show it so I could see it. I … Continue reading

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february 2010

Don’t go popping off Papa- I haven’t had my fill of you!! And you have promised to live in that family home with Amma for a couple of years at least. This is a difficult time of the year, and … Continue reading

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